once a party girl, always a party girl

I'm a nice girl. My friends think I'm a nice girl. My parents adore me and think I'm a great daughter. I've had my wild moments in high school and college, I've had one-night stands with men, but who hasn't? I also have a reserved side, a quiet side, the inner me that only a few people see. But in general I'm a happy person.

You know what really chaps my hide? The fact that people from high school still think I'm a party girl: out to have a good time, having sex with multiple partners, blow jobs in the back of people's cars, etc. And you know what, I'm not. And the thing is is that I never was sexually promiscuous (read: slut). I had a few boyfriends in high that I had sex with (let me think, Mark, Ramon, Dennis and Shane) over a course of four years. So what if I got caught making out with Doug Lynch in the back of Gary Corson's '57 Chevy? So what if I was doing beer-bongs in the back of Billy Pickle's VW bus and got caught making out with Jason and Paul at the same time? I didn't have sex with them! I just made out! And who else didn't experiment with other peoples' brothers and cousins behind the backstop or out by the train tracks. We've all had our moments of sexual exploration but I'm still paying for it. All this trauma because I'm an outgoing person.

I went to my 10 year high school reunion two years ago and everyone still thought I was this sex-crazed person. I met this guy who is roommates with a high school friend of mine and the guy had the nerve to ask about my high school days. The roommate said, "She was wild, a party-girl, always having parties, having sex with boys, blah, blah, blah." Ugh!

But I'm a grown up. I'm an adult. I've had a few mature relations with men. I've had a few flings. BUT IT IS NOT MY LIFESTYLE. I got to bed at 9:30, I go to the gym right after work, I go to the farmer's market, I cook, I make my bed, I eat oatmeal for breakfast. Obviously people from high school don't know me any more otherwise they wouldn't say these things about me. I'm still fucking angry at these people for spreading these rumors! But justice is served. When I went to my high school reunion, a lot of the popular girls that talked shit about me got fat over the past 10 years, and brought their fat husbands. I danced and partied with all of my friends. I was still the "party girl" that everyone thought I was but I did it with panache. I looked and felt great. So screw them!

I had sex the night of high school reunion. It was a blast! But they don't need to know that.

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